Growing in the Gap

By Brenda Blankenship

Alliance Women’s Coordinator

Do you ever feel like you are struggling with something but you’re just not sure exactly what or why it is? Well that’s the feeling I had for the past couple of years until the Lord took a hold of my life in 2017 and challenged me to start living out Colossians 3:23-24. “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.” (NIV).

I have found that sometimes we have to look back to see how far God has already brought us. I can say that I am not what I once was. However, I can also say that I am not what I want to be! So I find myself living in the gap, a work in progress.  So here I am in the middle of what I once was and what I want to be. In awe, I can look back and see I am not what I was. “If any man is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old is gone and the new has come.” (2 Cor. 5:17)  I am not what I was. If I walk with God, He will change me and conform me into the image of Christ. So as I move forward towards God’s purpose for my life, I get closer and closer to God, causing the gap in front of me to shrink.

Luke 24:31 tells us that when Jesus broke the bread and gave it to them, they recognized Him and He disappeared from their sight. Just because Jesus disappeared, didn’t mean He was gone from their lives. He wanted them to keep seeking after Him.

My expectation is that as I walk with God and as I make decisions to follow Him, the gap behind me will get bigger and the gap in front of me will get smaller. When I take a step and when I move, God takes a step and He moves. If we think that we have arrived, arrogance is sure to follow. God wants us to always have a thirst for Him and always seek after Him. So He makes sure that as we grow, the gap remains. We might look back and say, “Oh, look. I am moving forward,” but as you look forward you might feel like you haven’t gone anywhere. Trust that you’re right where you need to be.

We need grace for both gaps. The same grace that created the gap between where you once were and where you’re now at, is the same grace we need to keep moving forward. Sometimes it might feel like God is way out in front, creating a huge gap. Could it be that you stopped stepping? No matter what you feel like you are in the middle of, keep stepping. God is with us.  We need a gap that makes us grateful and a gap that makes us grow.   

The Lord will reveal things to us, when He knows we are at the right place to understand the what and the why. God’s timing is so perfect. I struggled for many years with feeling that I should be further along in my faith, that I should be smarter theologically, or that I was not growing or getting closer to God. This left me feeling as if God was always out of my reach.  Then one day while I was really struggling with these feelings, through a friend, the Lord revealed His grace to me, on a day I needed it the most. I was in the right place to understand the what and the why.

I will never be what I want to be because God will always make sure there is a gap to keep me growing. And this will always keep me thirsty for the Lord! Stay thirsty for the Lord my friends!